Today’s been kind of an eye-opener, especially in the last couple of hours. I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m a touch depressed lately.I thought for sure I’d find a job by now. A few weeks ago, I was sure I had landed one. I never got called back on it though, and it seriously bothered me. Not knowing what I did wrong, made all kinds of things flood my mind. I didn’t realize though, just how much that one setback really hurt me though.

There’s a bunch of other little things that I’m sure didn’t help, but I think the above is the main part. I guess I felt like a failure, that I shouldn’t bother trying again.

So, I’ve kind of retreated from… well… everything. No video games, no writing, no joy in any every-day activities. I’ve been incredibly sleepy, not wanting to go out or do anything. I guess I just didn’t realize just how bad it was until this afternoon, when I asked myself, “What the hell is wrong with you?”

However… we’re not talking the kind of serious clinical depression that I need help for, like I did back in high school. I just need to pick myself off, brush off the dirt, and get back into the game again. Tomorrow, I’m going to focus even harder to look for a job, any job, and do as much around the house as I can. I think being active will help me a lot, and that’s how I  plan to get things back on track.